life is incomplete

‘life is incomplete without you.’

that’s something in my mind right now. and i just realised this during these days after i met him again.

why i cannot forget him..

why i still think of him..

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to me, he’s incomparable..

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misunderstanding of feelings that i thought he thought the same as mine of returning and re-starting our relationship..

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or what!?

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after the meet-up on sunday, i’ve been waiting for his contacting back.. but no text, no phone calls.. nothing.. although i texted to ask him about his free time during weekdays, so that we might make a trip to pay respect to the passed-away her majesty. no reply!

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with the conversation on sunday, my mum also thought the same as me that it was likely that we could be together again. i wanted to ask her to stop thinking the same as i did because that would even make me hope more and more.

.. and when it doesn’t come as expected, it hurts a lot!!

yea.. i do hurt a lot now although i know that he didn’t do anything.

.. but i still wonder why he couldn’t just reply my txt message the other day. i just asked if he had free time. answer can be either yes or no. that’s it!

anyways..

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i’m thinking of sending him a v-day message and might say something that is in my heart at this time before i would not have this chance again ever!.. still hesitate.. because we planned to see each other again either on this fri or sat.

don’t want my stupid message taking him away.

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for the time being, i try very hard to concentrate on something else after i could not do so in the passed 3 days. homework undone!

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well, well… let’s see..

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happy valentine’s day to myself..

i don’t want any flowers or dolls..

i just want him.. and only him.

:)